bettydays:

reserve:

*wipes away one single tear* nonny, I’m obsessed with this, because it opens up so many doors. 

Do you mean to imply, that having Snoke in his head is one of the only things keeping Kylo Ren Kylo Ren? And that in the absence of Snoke, Ren falls into personality limbo? Slipping between the person he believes he has become and should be, versus the person he once was, who he does not believe he can return to? 

Does that mean, anon, that sometimes when Hux goes to him, Ren’s smile is more mischievous and his touch is less to bruise and more to tease? Whereas other nights, Ren is a suffocating force of ardor and injury, taunting and tantalizing in turn? Tearing into Hux’s mind without thought for the consequences? And then, then anon, is Ren picking up the pieces the next time he finds Hux in his arms, and attempting to undo his own work??? 

I’m not saying a Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde AU, I’m saying where is my Ben Solo and Kylo Ren fic. 

#holy shit i’m fucking losing it #hux is so confused and he cannot fathom why ren becomes so angry at the marks on his skin when he put them there himself #he cannot understand how sometimes ren’s eyes look so different in the light #why sometimes he seems to have a difference voice entirely (via @reserve)

And Hux understands the mask now, the threat of seeing Ben Solo’s face in the mirror. The raging outbursts that cause more harm to Ben Solo than anything else. Kylo Ren may be shredding a control panel but the act of it silences Ben, a flickering, fading light.

Hux offers to go on every mission with Kylo Ren, to the furthest reaches of the galaxy, just to catch a glimpse of Ben now and again, just to get far enough away from Snoke that the flame can start to burn brighter. He doesn’t mind Ren’s rage anymore, not when he knows what lies underneath it. Each bruise he inflicts on Hux, each wound, each tear is worth it.